Great so so i saw AH tuesday night. XL called me up in the morning and asked to go out to a bar with some friends of his from work he said. I was tired but i hadn't hung out with him in a while so i told him i'd bring V and L and i'd meet him after work. So i finished at 6 but i had the sudden urge to go to the hairdresser and dye it blonde. It took way longer than i thought though and i wasn't out of there til 10:30, so i couldn't go home and change, so i went to the bar in my white blouse and black pants, and who did i see there but Johnny and AH. I couldn't believe it. Stupid XL had betrayed me. Oh ya and i couldn't reach L so she didn't end up coming. But V was there... i was so nervous to see him. I hadn't seen him since january 1st. So i did what i always do when i'm nervous. Acted like a bitch. I gave AH a kiss hello, but after that, i completely ignored him and flirted with everyone else. He left after an hour and a half. I acted happy that he was gone but really it was killing me. i wanted him to talk to me and tell me he loved me and wanted to be with me, but obviously that wasn't gonna happen. Now i don't know what to do. I'm having dreams about him and today at work i started spontaneously crying. Fuck. Well, at least he saw me with my hair looking really good...