I have this friend who works at a strip club... no not as a stripper, she's the coat check girl. I go visit her sometimes when i have nothing to do, and the other day i went and was introduced to one of the doormen, i'll call him Bee. You know how you can always tell when a guy thinks you're hot, and you play it up by looking at him in That way, and smiling when you catch him staring at you,... anyways this guy isn't bad looking but i wasn't actually interested in dating him or anything. I was just bored. He looked old, too, like he was in his 30s. So the next day i met that same coat check girl buddy of mine, CCG, for coffee and she told me that this guy was really into me and wanted to take me out to dinner. Like, here's the thing: i'm 19, but i'm stil a virgin, and when you date older guys they expect certain things from you, which i am not ready for... Whatever so i told my buddy i really wasn't interested but she kept insisting that he's a really cool guy and if she didn't have a bf She would date him... She has a lot of sex though and she's dated really older men. Oh btw this Bee guy is 36! like almost twice my age! so CCG wouldn't stop insisting i give him a chance, and at least i'd get a free dinner out of it or whatever, and i finally agreed to a double date with her and one of Bee's friend's. Her bf can't know about it though... She said she'd set it all up and so we're supposed to go out tonight. I haven't heard from her yet today though and it's already 4:30. i'm starting to be a bit nervous. Like i have pretty much no experience with older guys. My rule is i'll only date guys born in the 80s. And this guy was probly born in... 1969,... Dude! Anyway i'm really good with younger guys. It's mcuh easier to fuck with them because they're not really that smart, in general. I have this fear that an older guy would pick up on it pretty fast and if i didn't wanna have sex with him he might get angry and force me or something. I honestly am pretty scared of older guys. maybe i shouldn't be, though. Maybe they're just as stupid as the younger ones. But with more money... lol. No but seriously i'm definitely not ready to have sex yet. I really really need a Lot of time to get really close to a person and there has to be alot of trust, too. And i haven't found that yet. I know i wil, though, i'm not worried about that, it's just a matter of time... i'm just really scared that i might get forced into something that i'm really not ready for, and that it'll fuck me up.