i am sto - ned. I just got this idea for a movie where it's this girl, and she's all dating this guy, but she's also involved with his whole group of friends and none of them no nothing about eachother or anything. Pretty funny. At least to me, right now. Let's see what i think tomorrow when i read this. Blablabla i miss affection i miss being held and touched and kissed and aaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh...... It's The best feeling. I live for it. My life's goal is to have as many of those moments as possible. With a guy of course. it's only amazing with a guy... You like... that you Really like it's like floating on a heavenly cloud. Those kindof things are hard to come by though aren't they. Or are they? Maybe it's me... I haven't been kissed in at least over a month. I think the last guy was T. No wait actually it was that loser whack idiot D that i hated... ewww. I can't believe That is my last makeout experience. No wonder i'm depressed. No wonder i'm suddenly suffering from AH withdrawal... calling him in the middle of the night, dreaming about him...fuck i need to find a guy.but they're so scarce it seems. Once in a blue moon a nice good one comes along and then disappears as fast as he arrived. It's like a beautiful mirage... whatever man i'm too stoned to be going on about this i'm probly talking giberish. But anyway. All i'm saying, is that i want someone. I want love. I want intimacy, closeness, whatever the fuck you want to call it i want it. and if it doesn't happen i'm gonna be So Mad