i don't think anyone else hates their mother as much as i do. Horrible manipulative woman. i wish i knew why she doesn't love me. i guess maybe noone can. i'm moving out soon with CCG. At last I'll be as far away as my family as possible. I won't have to come home to the screams and insults and character defamation. It's not possible to be happy when you live here. Why even try? God now i'm just so glad that it's spring and warm FINALLY and that i'm leaving this fucking horrible place. I need a job though. I went out today to give out resumes to like 10 places, so i'm crossing my fingers. oh just thinking about the wonderful day when i'll be gone gives me tingles. Good tingles. And now i'm crying. Joy crying.