Stupid V... she can't keep her pants on for more than 2 days. We went to the club on friday where my brother and his friends promote, and i had to work the next day so i wanted to go home, but at 3 oclock in the morning there were no more buses or metros, so my bro's friends offered us a ride to their place, so we said ok because it was better than walking home. My brother doesn't know about it though. He doesn't want me hanging out with his friends because... you know how brothers are. And he knows how his friends are so... but whatever. None of them would dare touch me, but they hit on V, and there's one guy in particular, Mid, who's been hitting on her for the past few weeks, and he told everyone he wanted to bang her, and my bro told me this, and i told her this, so when we went ovr there i told her 'listen, don't do anything with Mid' and she said yaya and promised she wouldn't. But the next day i had to leave early to go work, and she stayed all day, and i went back that evening to sleep over, and of course they had sex... So now, everytime we see him it's gonna be awkward, or all they'll do is fuck, and i'm gonna be all in the middle. Again. I know it's horrible but i secretly wish she would get an STD so she might get it and stop sleeping around with all these people. I know this sounds weird but secretly i Hate sex. It's like i think it's... wrong, somehow. To me, sex is the opposite of love, which might be why they seem to be connected, like they go hand in hand. They're so different that they're the same. I don't really ever want to do it, but i know i'll have to eventually, but i'm really dreading it, honestly. I just wish i could have a completely wonderful, loving, innocent relationship with no sex ever. but just kissing and snuggling and intimacy. Isn't that a hundred times more wonderful than just fucking? whatever. Maybe i'm crazy but i won't change my mind.