Just got home from the strip club. It was quite dead (obviously on a sunday night). Bee was there and we played chess together, he beat me though (i really suck at it). He was acting all nervous and shy around me which i hate, because it makes Me nervous which i hate even more. I don't get it though. This guy is 17 years older than me wtf does he have to be shy about. Whatever it's better this way because i don't particularly wanna see him anyway, i'm just doing it for CCG. As i left he told me to give him a call if i wanna hang out... Give him a Call? Come on, now. I just don't understand guys who act like that. It's really not attractive to a girl when a guy asks her to call. It actually pisses me off. I feel like saying yea right buddy, that's gonna happen. You just wait by the phone... But what i actually did was smile and say "sure" like a polite little girl that i am. Whatever at least i have my date with T to look forward to. I don't know what i'm wearing though, which could be a problem. Normally in this situation i would go shopping tomorrow and fuckin buy a hot-ass new outfit that i would feel super confident and hot in, but as i am currently broke, i'll have to settle for what i have in my stupid closet. You know what's weird? i have this kind of job interview that was scheduled for wednesday, but then right after i made the date with T the lady called me up to tell me it was changed to Tuesday. And like for the past like 3-4 interviews i had i just ditched them because i had slept over either at Ts house or some other guys house and i was too lazy or hungover to show up. So now i have this date tonight, and i have to be at this other thing tomorrow at 1, so i really see it as a sign that i have to choose between taking responsibility for myself, or hanging out with boys. So i'm gonna tell T i can't come over after we have dinner, and i know he's gonna be disapointed and try to convince me just to stay a little bit but i have to be strong and say no. Besides i'll see him another time anyway.