Last night was pretty cool. At first me and V didn't know what was going on, i was afraid it was gonna be one of those nights, you know, where you have so many options that you can't make up your mind, and you end up doing nothing. But then finally, at like midnight, we met up with these 2 guys that V knows, and we decided to go play pool. It was kinda like a double date, and "my" guy was pretty cute... his name's M. He's like a bit shorter than me though but whatever. Like i normally hate pool like death, but once i got into it it wasn't so bad, we drank alot so that might've helped, too, ... after that we had Mickey Ds at like 4 in the morning and he took us home. V says this M guy is really into me, and, like, he's one of those girlfriendy type of guys, u know, that are looking for a girlfriend, but i don't know those guys kind of scare me, you know? I like the ones who don't want commitment and stuff. I'm way more comfortable with that. Anyway i don't know if he calls me i guess i'll date him, but... I don't know i just get the feeling i'm gonna do the same thing i always do... Just push him away when he tries to get too close. Fuck! i just wanna fall in love more than anything but it's like i'm incapable.