So, Louise wrote another book. I am ecstatic about that. I couldn't buy it because sixteen dollars is just too much. But I did buy Dancing in my Nuddypants since it came out in paperback. I will have to get Away Laughing on a Fast Camel from the library. Hopefully they will have it. I got new paintbrush and an artist's anatomy book. I think I am going to completely redo my STS paintings. I just don't like them enough to accept them as final. I might keep them...but more likely I will burn them. Luckily I kept the second drawing because I like the way it turned out. The painting just came out like crap. Karen is sleeping over at her friends house thank Davey. I think I will start saying "Thank Davey" instead of thank god, since I don't belive in God and I treat Davey as one. Or maybe "Thank Jade" or "Thank Hunter" or "Thank Adam" because they all are like my gods. Gods are supposed to be something that help you get through life and someone you have faith in, right? Well thats how I feel about AFI. I think I may go to bed early so I can wake up early and enjoy the few Karen free hours I have. I want to blast my music in the living room and dance. (Oh, we dance in misery...) I am currently working on a poem. It is probably craptacular, but its kind of expressing my thoughts. I think it will end up being more like a song. I decided to day to dedicate myself to doing the things I want. I'm going to force myself to learn guitar and force myself to learn to draw, no matter how hard it is and no matter how bad I suck. The drawing bit will be easier than the guitar bit. I've had my guitar for over a year and still can't play a thing. I have even forgotten how to read tabs. I took three lessons and gave up because I was too lazy to practice. NO MORE. I will force myself to learn. Well, thats all for now. I shall write again tomorrow, but until then, I will be... Forever walking through December forever rise. Forever longing for a sign of life, a bringer of light... Forever wandering together through... a world of violets.