I will fight like hell to hide that I am giving up... I don't really know why I'm writing an entry right now. I don't even have anything to say. Well, nothing I can talk about at least. Maybe another real eljay entry will come of this, who knows. I had a pretty good time at Ashley's last night, and Kelly came over today. I am sure she was bored shitless, but I guess being bored with a friend is better than being bored by yourself. My dad's sending me $200 to buy CD's for christmas, so that's neat. My aunt sent me a Barnes and Noble gift card and 20 dollars for my birthday and Christmas, and my great grandparents sent me a check for Christmas, so I have some money to buy whatever I don't get on Saturday. Nice. I still don't get why my mom won't take me to the Bright Eyes show. I offered to pay to stay in a hotel so she won't have to drive at night, but still she says no. I know she will be feeling better by then, so I really don't get it. I know I should drop it, but it's just really disappointing. I wish I had some way to get there. I'd pay someone to drive me to the concert and I'd buy their ticket. But I don't really even know anyone who could do that. :( Sheesh. 124