I'll put the noose around my neck Will you get to me just in time? I've got no reason left to live But I've got a hundred to die I actually feel alright at the moment. Funny how quickly my moods change lately. I've been updating more frequently than usual the past few days...pity I never post anything worth reading. Perhaps I don't have anything worth reading to say. I don't think that's the case. I hope that's not the case. I just never feel like I can post when I do have something worth posting. It seems so strange to open my heart and mind to an unlimited number of people who never have and never will know me. I do however, put clues in seemingly pointless and mundane entries, which those of you who do know me would have little trouble picking out. And no, I'm not talking about obvious inclusions of lyrics (as I'm sure at least two of you who may perhaps be reading this may be thinking)-those aren't clues, those are answers. Song titles are clues. Words are clues. But now I'm just rambling on and wasting space and time. The point of all this is...I want to write something with a point after this. I'll try. If I will succeed or not is unknown and unlikely. But I am going to try. And that's all I can ask of myself, I suppose. I guess I shouldn't have much right to be unhappy. There are people who care about me-the number might be small...but it's something. I get what I want much more often than I deserve. But somehow it doesn't seem fair that the all shitty things in someone's life should be dismissed because of the good things. I don't know. I don't want to die. I just don't want to live like this. Lost in a familiar place This channel will not change This feeling's all too strange It's like home in many ways