I cried today at school. I don't really feel like going into it now, it's kind of complicated, even though it's simple. I don't know, I'm in no mood to talk about it right now. I'm sick, and just really really sad. I don't know how I'm going to handle this. I'll talk about it this weekend, I really really need to get this off my chest. It's weighing me down and I can't breathe. The good news is...I'M SEEING FREAKING BRIGHT EYES!!!! YES!!! On the 28th. FUCK YES. I'm so excited. I'm still worried that something will happen and I won't get to go, but I hope it's just a feeling and everything works out. Anyway, I need to go hide from life. I'll be safe in bed under the covers. Goodbye. Well the future's got me worried Such awful thoughts My head's a carousel of pictures The spinning never stops I just want someone to walk in front And not follow the leader Like when I fell under the weight of a schoolboy crush Started carrying her books and doing lots of drugs I almost forgot who I was But I came to my senses Now I'm trying to be assertive I'm making plans Gonna rise to the occasion yeah Meet all their demands But all I do is just lay in bed And hide under the covers Yeah I know I should be brave But i'm just too afraid of all this change And it's too hard to focus through all this doubt I keep making these to-do lists but nothing gets crossed out Working on the record seems pointless now When the world ends who's gonna hear it? But I'm trying to take some comfort in written words Yeah, Tim, I heard your album and it's better than good When we get off tour I think we should Hang and black out together 'Cause I been feeling sentimental for days gone by All the summers singing, drinking, my friend Wasting our time Remember all the songs and the way we smiled In those basements made of music But now I've got to crawl to get anywhere at all I'm not as strong as I thought So when I'm lost in a crowd I hope that you'll pick me out How I long to be found The grass grew high, I laid down Now I'm waiting for a hand To lift me up, help me stand I've been laying so low Don't wanna lay here no more Don't wanna lay here no more Everything that happens is supposed to be And it's all predetermined can't change your destiny Guess I'll just keep moving Someday maybe I'll get to where I'm going P.S. Listen to these bands. I've posted some of them before, but SRSLY PEEPS. They are freaking awesome. www.myspace.com/worldinferno (the song "Brother of the Mayor of Bridgewater" is awesome.) www.myspace.com/dresdendolls www.myspace.com/voltairenyc www.myspace.com/theoddz (Voltaire's side project) www.myspace.com/androidlust (Listen to Stained) www.myspace.com/kaltekult (listen to Sweet Devotee) www.myspace.com/untoashes I know there are more, but those are the only ones I remember off the top of my head. Now...GO. You can hear the songs for free. What have you got to lose?