God and it takes you exactly no time at all to reduce me to being 14 years old and stuck in the middle again.

I thought I was over this, and I thought was older than this now. I thought, finally, God, finally I was free. I'm 20, almost 21, and by george, I thought I had it.

And then this, and then I'm sitting here crying to myself and it's like no time has passed at all, and you've fucking ruined the night for me, and you've fucking

I don't even know.

I just want someone to hold me and tell me it'll all go away for good someday.