Right now, at this particular time of my life, I am confused. However, I can’t figure out what I am confused about. I’ve done my share of thinking, and that I’m confused about just Me. I don’t know what is real anymore. I see things on the TV that tells me something. Then at home, I’m told another thing. I’ve learned to just ignore everything and listen to myself. But I’m not always correct in my decisions I make. I just sometimes need a helping hand. And I haven’t been able to find that helping hand. Many people don’t know why Marilyn Manson is my idol, my hero. They just think I like him because of his music, that’s only one of the reasons. You see, I’ve gotten able to know the deeper side of him. Not just Marilyn, but Brian. His music may just seem like any other music to people, but to me, it keeps me alive. The things he sings about all makes perfect sense to me. This is why, when the Columbine shooting happened, I was very angry. How can someone mistake his lyrics for motivation to kill. When he strongly is against such ignorant acts. But most of the things they had said were all lies. It was said that the foolish children were wearing Manson t-shirts and white make-up like him. When in fact, they weren’t. When in fact, they dislike his music. But it’s just not the fact that they blamed him. They blamed music for the acts they committed so they wouldn’t have to blame themselves. I know this was all in the past, but it just shows how ignorant our world has become.