my dear darlin’ dwaynie surprised the shit outta me last night…..he calls and tells me that he has to pick his sister up at 6…it is currently 5 o’ clock. I say no that it’s a waste of gas and I don’t wanna be the reason he’s late getting his sister. But then he pops the “do you trust me?” of course I trust him….so I went along. Then here he comes up my driveway with roses…so I’m thinking “awe! that’s so sweet” (just like him) but then I find out that his dad got his mom 2 dozen and gave 5 to Dwayne to give to me….cuz it was their 19th anniversary. But what is weird about it is that Dwayne and I’s anniversary is 5/19. That’s kinda cool. Another reason I hesitated the idea of going along is because I was trying to clean my room….top to bottom and Dwayne knew that, but he convinced me and I’m glad he did. It made me realize that I cannot go a day without him. He came into my room briefly and we kissed….it was more enjoyable than usual because I knew he was leaving any minute. I want to go to his house for dinner tonight when I’m done getting my taxes done. He wants me to because he has a ‘surprise’ for me. I really wanna go but I’m not sure if I can get the car because mam will probably want to go see grammy. Oh well, Alan can take her…..damn, if I’m gonna pay car insurance I wanna drive the damn car. It seems that every time I ask for it I’m never allowed.