there are two things that i dislike about my job: 1.) the looonnnnggg ten hour days. 2.) the people i work with it is sooo frustrating! work is so much more enjoyable when you actually get along with and enjoy being around the people that you work with...i'm going to make that my new goal...get along with ramona....which therefore, if we get along...we will all get along...i'd rather not be cool with her because she's a back-stabbing bitch...it's been proven..and you can also see it in her eyes when she talks to you...it's weird i know, but it's true. anything w0uld be better than feeling so alone and sitting by yourself at lunch...i've always been an outcast/loser and i just don't understand why. Seriously, what is wrong with me? what do i do wrong, why can't i make friends...i have really bad people skills....but now just like people skills..just making friends skills...like i'm so good with my patients and they all love me and tell me how great of a girl i am and how i'm so on top of things...everything is so hard for me...i guess i'll just blame it on my mom and all the shit she put me through...or, i'll just blame it on me...it's all my fault...i try to make the best of it, i really do...but it's so overwhelming and hard. I'm in the computer lab at hacc trying to kill time until 12:15 until dwaynie gets out of his class and then walks me to mine that starts at 12:30..i'm going to try and write a new entry every tuesday and thursday...so hopefully i can do that. i always wonder....blah, all this rambling...i'm out.