I tried to make mom feel special on Mother’s Day. I bought her a necklace that says mom, chapstick that says mom, a candle with a cool thing on it with her birthstone, a card and a balloon….but she is an ungrateful bitch. It’s amazing how much one’s life can change in a just a matter of 10 minutes. I watch as my mother who has chosen a man who’s lied to her and ruined her life for the past 15 years….over her own flesh and blood. I watch the rain come down, but I watch my 24-year-old brother’s tears come down faster. The cops come to break up the flying fists and the shouting. The night at the house ends with everyone packing their bags and clearing out. So now I don’t have a mother or a father. I’m basically homeless. If it weren’t for Dwayne and his caring, understanding family, I would be. They’re only letting me stay there and changing their lives around because I’m dwayne’s girlfriend. That’s the only reason, and I don’t even understand why he’s still with me. I feel so bad that he’s in this big mess. I feel like such an intruder to his home and his family. it puts me in tears every time I’m around his family because they’re so loving and happy and I wish that my family was the same way. Life is not worth living, it would be much less painful to just die, than to live…..it’s just not worth it….Not worth living in a world with greedy, unappreciative people. The only person who gives a damn, is dwayne himself....he's the ONLY reason i'm still here. I was just in my guitar ensemble and I felt like punching them all in the face. The 2 melody players think that they’re god and they don’t need music….the one plays dmb like no stop and thinks he’s all that because his brother is zach bupp, and the other is a dumb football player who can’t even read the music…they suck..and HELLO! Professional musicians still use their music…..It’s a beautiful piece and I want it to sound beautiful. I feel so invisible and useless….and I don’t want to be here.