I'm feeling better today...i decided that rather than thinking about all the bad things, to think about the good things....like how i have a loving supportive boyfriend that i love very much...who is willing to help me through all of this that he doesn't have to...Dwayne thinks that all of this that has happened is kind of an omen...like his dad gave me a key to thier house before all of this went down...i quit my job that i worked at for 2 years and 7 months 2 weeks before all of this happened...i never wanted to quit that job just for the simple fact that it was so conviently located 3 houses down from where i live....i prayed last night, and that is kind of weird because i asked for "the higher power" to lead me in the right direction and to give me strength, as well as helping mom come to her senses....and this morning i was awakened by dwayne's cell phone and it was my mom ....she left a message saying she still loves me a stuff....i hope she doesn't think it's that easy for me to come back to her....i gotta go the bell just rang