dwayne's black fish died and it's disgusting, i hate dead things even more than i hate living things. Like the time our hamster died, i let it in the cage all day until he came over to remove it..i just can't i cant! And dammit, by the time i start my new job i'll be off for like 6 weeks! i was going to do my classes this saturday, but that's my surprise bridal shower. so dammit, now i have to wait even longer! it sucks because i need to buy dwayne a present for our anniversary but i have no money!! well, i do, just a little, but i have a bill down there, i just don't wanna spend any money cuz i never know what is gonna come along and get in my way....now i'm a month and a half behind on my rent!!! it's REALLY hard by yourself....even if it is cheap, there are so many things! especially now, keep getting these bills from dr. appointments for the baby...if we can't afford the bills now, we'll never be able to afford a baby!! and working at turkey hill, won't cover a damn thing! when is life going to give me a break? oh, and also i'm going to hate our wedding because i know i'm gonna hate having all that attention and i HATE it when people say i'm beautiful