i'm sooo damn excited right now!!! Just as i was gonna get motivated to go find a job my phone rings and it's penncredit! damnit i'm sooooo freakin excited..i have a second interview tomorrow at 11!!!!!!!!!!!! i wonder if my mom's friend called whinnie (the manager) and told her how desperate i was or if it just happened...i don't know why, but i think trying to collect people's debts would be fun!! i'm so weird..i live kind of far away though..but it's okay...it's exactly what i'm looking for...monday through friday 8-5! then maybe i could do banquets at holiday in on the weekends and make like a hundred plus in just one day! life is good....you just gotta stick out the bad days to get to the good...and by golly i've had enough bad ones to last a life time...i went to the baby's second doctors appointment by myself yesterday because dwayne decided to stay home and watch porn instead, can you believe that cat? actually, he "didn't get out of school in time...." even though i had to sit in the waiting room for like a half an hour and then like 20 minutes waiting for the doctor to come in..the baby's heart beat was 141 bpm...it was 176 bpm last time...but that's cuz it's growing...it took a long time for her to actually find it...and when she finally did, she found it EXACTLY where i was having pains the other day...i guess it's just my uterus growing but i hope everything will be healthy..i guess, in a way i'm kinda lucky...i mean i have an ultra weak immune system but i think that's because i grew up around smoke and then i started to smoke...but, then again, i never really had cramps, i didnt have morning sickness....and those are two very great things! i'm so excited and the weirdest part is that i was getting so desperate that i was about to call penncredit and talk to whinnie to see if anything else got available since the last time i was in. and this time, i don't have to wait two loooonnnggg weeks to actually start, i can start monday by dammmit!! i just hope that i can keep the medical benefits that i got. i think i will because i 'm not gonna be making too much..i just hope that she doesn't have a problem with me needing a week off in june...and i think i'm gonna actually tell her that i'm pregnant...the only bad thing about this job is the dressing up...i'm gonna have to spend all my money from the paychecks to buy nice, business like clothes that actually fit! damn i'm so talkative when i'm happy and excited....i wish it would happen more often...maybe if i actually talked, i'd have friends!