hey! guess what!> the carpet STILL isn't in, and i STILL haven't moved in. HOPEFULLY i'll be there by christmas. I'm supposed to get my kitty tomorrow but i have nowhere to put her. i'm so sick of being so nice and helpful to everyone but why do i do it? i do it because it makes me feel better, but then i just get shit on. I keep doing things that i feel is right and try to please people, hoping, just hoping that my life will take a turn for the better. But all that's been happening is me being an unpleasable bitch and on the verge of throwing a two-year relationship down the shit hole. "My mothers always tried to change herself She never learned to let things be She doesn't know how bad she messed me up 'Cause now she seems so fake to me but I love her Look at me I'm so pathetic If you push me then I won't fall I've been programmed to take it all And shove it way down inside I hear you talk about your family life I wish I knew just what that means "