it's so weird typing on here, i haven't typed at a computer since the last entry...besides writing emails to frakenstein drag queen's info address thing....cuz i bought dwayne a cd on november 5, and i still didn't get it and it pisses me off sooooo bad! dammit they stole $30 from me! Nothing too new, i started hacc on tuesday...my classes are an hour and fifteen minutes long. there are only 7 people in my math class and the teacher is boring. my english class is okay...there are like 3 other girls going for nursing and it sucks....i wish i wanted to do something that not many people wanted to do...but i have to stick with this cuz i never stick to anything and i want to help people and old people are so cute. i've been such a bitch to dwayne the past couple days and i don't know why. honestly, i've just been really disapointed with our relationship. He's just not the same, he used to be so sweet and lovey....and surprise me so sweetly. i think our love just died and i don't know how to renew it. Not to mention, i should't have moved into the apartment cuz what happens if we break up, i sure as hell can't stay living down there, it would be too weird and i just can't handle it. we're so young and have so much life to live and he just doesn't listen to me when i say this. he says i need to grow up and shit. i think it would be easier if we grew up seperatly,instead of together. we need to finish school and get a good job and stuff. then we can live life together...in a house, married. and be able to SLEEP IN THE SAME BED! i just can't handle relationships. all the shit my mom put me through makes life even harder and i can't trust anyone. ....she already ruined twoholiday's for me, now, because of that i can never again enjoy christmas or mother's day. i'm getting tired and i need to go to work tomorrow ,i need to get plenty of rest for these killer 10 hour days.