ahh i'm so bored! i don't know what to do with myself! i really should've taken a volunteering thing or SOMETHING i might go mad. yesterday i hung out with all the shorties (haha seriously, i'm the tallest one of us all... i beat them all by at least 3 in.) we went swimming, then went back to meagans house and jumped ont he trampoline with the hose going.. which is actually really really fun. its so simple, but so fun. i mean, i felt like i was a 7 years old again. then we went to the harry potter party (why did i go?) it was just filled with harry potter freaks... but all in good fun.. hiding in the corner reading a book about the joys of gay sex, its always good. then everyone was supposed to go to kat's house, but of course, my parents wouldn't let me. why u might ask? because i had some books on my floor. seriously, it was like 10 items on my floor, so it was 'messy'. its the summer!? why do i need to clean my room? grr. i think i had lax practice today.... umm i 4got to go. oh well.. o very very very scary thing. scorpion in my room last night it was like 3 am, and i'm about to get into bed, when i see a scorpion on my stereo. i'm too scared to get within 6 inches of it, (in other words, place a cup over it) so i wake my dad up (i'm such a wimp!) but he got the scorpion to go away. thats the first time a scorpion has been found in my room!in like the 10 years we've lived in this house! there is this party going on. which although i dont' really know the girl, i wish i was there. kat is there with nicole. nicole does not like me. she's so 'cliquey' and i feel like she thinks i'm not good enough for her. i don't get it. she seems like a cool person, but i dont' know. here are some theories i've gotten from people *i'm intimidating, she's the 'top dog' of her friends and i'm one 2 (uhhh ok?) *she's exculisvely cliquey and is not willing to let anyone else 'in' its a weird situation, because you'd think we'd be friends. but its like she doesn't want to put the effort into it. oh its so confusing! change my mood to confused!!!i just wish i knew what she thought about me. i don't know why i care about it! its probably cuz i'm with her for qutie a bit and a lot of my friends are friends with her. well aslo probably because the whole 'clique' she's in ruined my chance to go to lax camp. I HATE HIGH SCHOOL~ did they mean to make it hell? daivds at a movie. he's said forever that he would hang out with me and he hasn't. i've noticed that no one ever calls me to hang out. i always talk to them, or call them. its because i'm not in a 'clique' sometimes i wish i was, but then other times i think i wouldn't be able to stand the same ppl all the time. hmmm... i don't know why no one ever calls me. oy. too much swirling around my mind right now. argh. I NEED CAMP SO BAD ITS NOT FUNNY. seriously. camp is the only place where i'm not confused and where i'm free. o catalina save me.