talk about random... you think things are going perfect. he's the guy from the fairy tales says all the right things at all the right times but then he mysteriously doesn't say goodbye to you before you leave for santa fe. whats going on? i hoped a random trip to california or something had popped up...and he was dying to call me but just couldn't, or thought i wouldn't answer. no. things weren't working out as i imagined, he said imagined? did you have a plan? i thought a relationship was just supposed to go on naturally i guess not to you. why? what did i do wrong? was i not pretty enough? did i not kiss you enough? what did i do? why isn't just me...enough? why?