sooo let me talk about friday as if it were a rollercoaster (it was close to it) start the day off with the trial, which i thought i did decent acting as abigail, but then josh yelled at me and said that the jury hated me because of the way i acted...i guess my depressed and distressed act didn't work. and david was there for shadowing, which was fun and cool. he gave me his school picture which is one of the greatest i have ever seen. his shirt that he's weraing in it says' 'don't sweat the petty, pet the sweaty" i love david! lol. i left before the verdict was read to get my braces off and that was a fun time. plus i got to drive both ways. and my teeth look good! and i'm happy with them then i came back to school for like 2 hours, and hten left again at 1.30 to go to the specialist for my 'lump'. well when i came outside the school, both of my parents were there and i wa slike oook...normally only one comes. turns out whoever made the appt. with them said 'not to miss this, you wanna have this as soon as possible' and that they had lunch together and wanted to come.. k... so we get there, and first we see the neurosurgeons assistant, who i think is gay, nice, but gay. thn the real neurosurgeon comes in, and he shows us my mri. holy shit my lump is huge. the part thati can feel is like barely the outside of it. when you see it on the MRI it looks like a plum is sittin on my head. the 'plum' has erroded away my outer 'eggshell' skull, so i really have nothing there as of now except for the plum. its gotten into the next level thats outsdie my brain, i forget what he called it, but he said there is a very veyr very little chance it would ever get into my brain. although he said, the possibility of it getting bigger, is a good chance. he said we should ge tit removed. i was thinking, ok winter break we'll do it, i have 2 weeks to rest, and i have like 2 months to kinda get prepared for the surgery. nope. we're doing it fall break. thats in about a week. i've never had sugery before. but i'm not really worried about like dying on the table or anything, hello neurosurgeons of mayo clinic...jordan's king came to mayo just to have some surgery i think i'm ok..its just the whole thing...me getting surgery on my head...i dunno..its kind of big i guess. the neurosurgeon said they won't know what the plum really is until they remove it, although he gave it a name which is long and i forgot it. he said it is most likely not at all cancerous, although it can grow and shrink. on the way back to school, since i wanted to go to badminton, i was holding back tears. i felt bad, because there's nothing really for me to cry about. but i don't know why, i just couldn't help it. i got into school, saw sophie and julia, and told them and couldn't hold it in. its just scary i guess. my dad doesn't seem very sensitve to the whole thing. he's just like 'ok fall break, blah blah here's the logical part i don't know about emomtions blah blah' and i'm just sitting there about to scream "HELLO!?!?" plus mei mei said she would go to the sag game with me..but instead she couldn't and just went over to allysons...and i wished they would've invited me over...so instead i spent my friday night sleeping and alone. plus not david or willa were answering their phones. oy. what a day.