ay, why am i so easily swayed? 2 days ago we took this dr. phil intelligence test in history, and it said that i was fussy, i look at things from every angle and then don't do it, and i don't take risks and i'm painstankigly cautious. that kind of pissed me off because its half true. but it also made me sound boring...which i probably am. one of the questions asked that 'in your dreams, you usually are dreamiong about, and one of the choices was that you are looking for something. and that is true. it seems like in all my dreams i'm looking for something or someone. just last night i had a dream, that i was for some reason in like santa fe, or still in az i don't remember, in a group of girls, and one of them knew willa, and that we came to this fabric store because we were looking for a girly back drop to some project we were doing, but then i hear dthat will was there, so i just kept looking allll over for her and couldn't find her! i found her mom, even though i don't know who her mom is, but i just couldn't find willa! i also ran into brooke and amanda, but barely said hi to them cuz i was on the lookout for willa...but i never found her. and then i woke up. well tonight is homecoming, my dress came yesterday. when i first put it on, i thought it made look, very very wide. its a little weird, but its nice and im' not about to go out and look for another dress when ho mecoming is in like 10 hours. it needs to be a little altered, its a tiny bit big, but its better then getting the size smaller and then the dress being too small. there is some drama going on with the whole dinner reservations. if i had it my way, i'd either be going alone with marc, or just with megan and zach. as much as i adore nina and lauren, well, lauren is ending up not going with us, its just gonna be awkward. plus zach is goign to be late because of more basketball. oo i hope marc isn't mad. so david and laurie are happily courting...hopefully he won't forget about me...i feel like every time i mention david to marc..he gets a little..jealous ? haha...it makes me laugh so i try not to mention david but its hard... lol. i went to the homecoming game last night...i don't know why, i wasn't in a very social mood. plus seeing some people made me slightly depressed. i seem to not have very many friends, and then you know, dasi, kat, nicole well i saw them there, and dasi is only nice to me when she has no other choice (ie hebrew high) and she has no one else. i know she saw me, but she didn't even smile or say hi. same goes for kat. kat is on the superficial goal of high school to be popular. whatever floats her boat. she also used to be a good friend. and nicole... well if you've been keeping up, you can expect nicoles attitude towards me...especially if i tried to say hi. well chicos, i'm off to do...something .... stop being in a depressed mood, STOP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!