so when i read in the poem to be a nftyite, how it could break your heart, i finally learned that. i lost for president. and it was one of the most devastating things i've encountered yet, (considered, thank goodness, i've lost no immediate family, or anything like that) i really don't know what happened. I thought i did really well, i felt good about my performance, but yea. its the same kind of feeling when a boy breaks up with you, and a boy you really loved, except its like 160 people breaking up with you. i feel like some of the people who voted didn't really know what they were doing...or really cared. but i'm sure if i would've won i would've said that they did. the girl who did win is very cute, little, and as excitable as a little chiuauaha, and she's been described like that many a times. I guess thats just what sw was lookin for...and not me. its just such a blow, to know you would've done your all for the job, and your whole heart would've been in on it, but to not get it. and its just hurts because i wanted it to so so bad. i know people talk about how its not such a big deal, but being on board really did change my year. all my friends in other regions, who were juniors on board ran for regional board, and more than likely won. i guess its just says my region didn't think i did a good job as savp, which maybe i didn't...but its still hurts. so that and the seniors leaving, was just such atumble of emotions most of the weekend i was numb, and a lot of times i found myself just staring out into space, imagining, what it would've been like if i had... but i ran down for an open postiion, the lowest position, its pretty much a treasurer/secretary postion, and it'll be fun and easy, but not the same. i don't feel like i truly belong in it, and its weird to drop so far in the gavel order. it really is like when a boyfriend breaks up with you. you don't know what life is going to be like afterwards. it changes everything, and this has. i think this might be more devastating than boy, because a boy is one person who doesn't believe in you. and this was 160. i'm disappointed in myself mostly. and not mad at anyone because it is my fault for not being better. and now i guess i've learned my lesson. sucks. my spirits have been lifted by sara lerner...who i actually wasn't sure who she was voting for, but it doesn't matter because she really made me feel better... Slerner37: what up Yum0007: uggh sooooooooooooo out of it Slerner37: ps you left the coyote in my trunk lol Slerner37: word. Yum0007: aw fudge Slerner37: what do you mean you had your heart broken Yum0007: just the weekend was so sad overall, its a big blow to your self esteem when you loose an election Slerner37: yeah i know Yum0007: buti have to go get tutored in math so i won't fail that either, i'll talk to ya later babe...and if you want you can bring the coyote to school (if you dare to be seen with it) Slerner37: LOL Slerner37: wait wait wait Slerner37: one sec? Yum0007: ok Slerner37: i was just telling craig before Slerner37: that i dont think our region appreicates you. Yum0007: aw sara that means so much Slerner37: like i think you are ana amazing person Slerner37: and any other region would totally apprecaite you so much more- i just dont know why they dont get it here Yum0007: you have no idea how much that means to me sara Slerner37: :) Slerner37: i think you should run for north american Slerner37: but thats your choice hehe Yum0007: umm i'm nfty-licious and all, but i don't know if i can go that far.. Slerner37: youd be perfect