yes i do feel smelly...i think i smell... well...about 1 day till my surgery...about 2 till willa comes! i think the fact that willa is coming, is making my surgery just like o whatever. i don't know why, but i'm not really stressing about the surgery...should i? i'm not worried, or anything. i think my parents are more worried than i am. i think that i've been too busy to really have time to worry about it. so things with marc are going very well. this isn't supposed to happen to me, i'm not supposed to have a boyfriend, let alone one thats a senior, let alone someone i like, letalone them liking me back! i'm not pretty enough or witty enough or funny enough, but yet...why? i do not know. ok so today..went to barnes and noble with marc...and i got a book called 'the life of pi' i think thats it...it looked good..was under 20...i haven't bought a book in ages...then we went to village inn for pie (on a whim) then we went to the play, ' a winters tale' at school. some parts were incredibly boring (ie monologues, its shakespear people) but others were soooo funny. i know i can act...but i always get so intimidated in auditions or anything close...and i don't know..i don't have the initiative. well, one of marc's ex girlfriends, (i don't know her name...he just calls her satan) was in the play...and he wouldn't look at her...everytime she was on stage he'd look away... he was driving me home...and i forget what song was playing, but it was about what some guy wants in a girl...and he said to me i think i've got all that....ahh can you say prince charming? i can. prince charming. i still don't understand why he likes me. seriously..i don't get it! ay well homework (kamka grr evil woman) awaits..even though it is 1.22 am....well...who knows...i might die in surgery so why not stay awake as long as possible (totally just kidding)