Wow. This is my 50th entry! :D. Four years on this, baby, and going on five. ;] - - - - - - - - - - And boom, I'm off again, writing when I shouldn't be about things that probably don't deserve an iota of my time. But if I want this to become a habit, I'd better give in to it now before this mind grows up learning to keep itself closed. You can't play with This. This is not something to toy with. You can't take This and stretch it as if This would bounce back and be as it was before. I only have it in limited supply, and God knows that normal life itself makes it hard for me to retain the amount of This I have left. This belongs to Me, This is tied to Me, and at the moment, This is probably not what you are thinking. Oh, "What is This?" "I'm hanging onto This when there is no This to speak of." In the words of Carrie Underwood. This is power. Me has had times when This lifts Me up, despite the many weights hanging Me down. Times when Me has the negativity, the PMS, the criticisms, the insecurities, the doubts, the anxiety, the disappointment and the despair all clutching onto Me with their deadening, necrophiliac fingers, trying to ground Me and imprison Me's feet into the drying wet concrete that boils with anger, hate, impatience, and annoyance. But This is stronger than those. It rips Me free, and soon Me is looking at clouds. But as I said, This is tied to Me. Now, "Me" doesn't stand for anything. It is what it is. And Me is not strong. Not usually. Me is human. Me is weak. Me is fallible, hesitant, selfish, inconsiderate, angry, emotional, overwhelmed, and often disillusioned. Oh, and analytical. Which is Me's downfall. "Coincidence or not coincidence?" I think. Constantly. How do you figure out what Fate intends for you when Fate intends for you not to figure it out? I just find that frustrating. But that just might be my God-complex, my wish to be omniscient beyond the games and codes by which we all so like to play around. I simply just want to know if certain things have meaning, or if they don't, if they are just mere coincidences. Because then they are not worth Me. Bottom line? Please don't toy with This. Me is not strong enough.