IT'S ONLY AWKWARD IF YOU MAKE IT AWKWARD IT'S ONLY AWKWARD IF YOU MAKE IT AWKWARD IT'S ONLY AWKWARD IF YOU MAKE IT AWKWARD IT'S ONLY AWKWARD IF YOU MAKE IT AWKWARD IT'S ONLY AWKWARD IF YOU MAKE IT AWKWARD IT'S ONLY AWKWARD IF YOU MAKE IT AWKWARD IT'S ONLY AWKWARD IF YOU MAKE IT AWKWARD IT'S ONLY AWKWARD IF YOU MAKE IT AWKWARD IT'S ONLY AWKWARD IF YOU MAKE IT AWKWARD IT'S ONLY AWKWARD IF YOU MAKE IT AWKWARD IT'S ONLY AWKWARD IF YOU MAKE IT AWKWARD IT'S ONLY AWKWARD IF YOU MAKE IT AWKWARD IT'S ONLY AWKWARD IF YOU MAKE IT AWKWARD IT'S ONLY AWKWARD IF YOU MAKE IT AWKWARD IT'S ONLY AWKWARD IF YOU MAKE IT AWKWARD IT'S ONLY AWKWARD IF YOU MAKE IT AWKWARD IT'S ONLY AWKWARD IF YOU MAKE IT AWKWARD IT'S ONLY AWKWARD IF YOU MAKE IT AWKWARD IT'S ONLY AWKWARD IF YOU MAKE IT AWKWARD.

God.

I have an increasing inability to draw lines.

So don't give me an area where it's gray. Don't give me an area where I can't see, where there is confusion. Draw the line for me so that I don't have to draw it myself. Because I might cross it. Please.

Fuck it all lmfao.

Fuck it allllll.

I'm so bothered for no reason.

I need another point of focus. I need to distract myself. I need someone else.

Okay, no. I don't NEED anyone. But I WOULD LIKE another point of focus so that I don't get wrapped up in these past habits of mine.

It's not as easy for you as it is for me, and I wish it were. I wish I wasn't so lamely programmed. But it's in how I was raised. How I've grown.

How I am now.

How do you stop it?

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I will talk to him tonight.

Correction: I am already talking with him.

I need that other focal point. I get overwhelmed too easily.

He will be it.