i can't believe that i haven't been here in so long... wow: more than 2 years?! it's so crazy that my diary is still here, and im reading my old entries and realizing how much i've changed... *sighs* it's enough to make you depressed! i love you all! (i don't know who i'm talking about) if you read this, i hope that you can picture hiding something special away and then finding it years later... that's exactly how i feel right now. i'm hoping to keep this diary up, because it just seems so special. i mean, my myspace is not even a year old yet, but this thing is maybe 4 years old? i can't believe it. c ya, ~Busy Me P.S. here's something to help me back into my past artistic moods. Enjoy. "A Fourth World" Sometimes, when we are deeply distressed, When anger and sorrow beats strong in our breast, A rare portal opens, a door to within- An entry to past thoughts, secrets, and sin. A girl lies lost, her own heart broken Crying away fears and words unspoken. Suddenly collapsing into her own mind Where the comfort and safety she wished to find Lay just past a portal, where time was cracked A flaw, a mistake, and she was sent back To the start, the making, of all existing worlds Where the secrets and paths of life unfurled. A booming voice of great magnitude But filled with wisdom and solitude Said, "So many worlds, but which one to pick? Make your choice carefully; don't be so quick. It looked down upon her and mischievously smiled, "I know the wholeness of heart you haven't felt for awhile. "I give you these three portals- the first one is this: No pain, no change, no hurt to persist. You'll feel nothing at all, forever more, Never again feel your heart this sore. "The next is a world so maliciously bad, But perfect whenever your heart is mad. Fierce rage, revenge, all the evil you need. Cast your own warnings for others to heed. "And last is a world purely for your choice If only dire desp'rateness is found in your voice. When unjust Fate hates you, when living hurts you so Suicide, honestly, is the only way to go." The girl had been listening but now shook her head, "I don't believe in any of the lies that you said." I'll never love you, were what she could remember, The loss of hope, that he would not love her forever. But back into the portal, to the fourth world she goes, Even though it was filled with her fears and her woes, With hateful people who will break her heart again, But she knew she had her soul to keep 'til the end, And that Fate was telling her to move on...