On August 28, 2009, Casey and I broke up.

And here are all related things to go with that...

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BEFORE.

Moleca: and i think you should talk to him as soon as possible

Moleca: ah, his facebook status was sad so i was like hmmmm

Rini: Oh I have about 60 pages too

Rini: DX

Moleca: and i asked what's wrong and that commenced LONG ASS IMS from him xD

Rini: What did it say? :[

Rini: The status.

Moleca: Casey Rosario Ugh, I hate it when I get feelings like these. Maybe I'm too pessimistic for my own good.

Rini: :[

Moleca: 'cause he thought you were like avoiding him or sometihng

Rini: I wasn't explicitly doing that yesterday.

Rini: It's not like I've blocked him; I've legitly been away from the computer.

Rini: But still.

Moleca: YEAH

Rini: The thought iss there.

Rini: =/

Moleca: he thought that, too

Moleca: he does want to try and make it work, though

Rini: ;____________;

Rini: I can't.

Moleca: You should tell him :<

Rini: I want to be his friend, but I can't keep calling him my boyfriend

Rini: I wanted to break up with him after school started, because I know that if I do it now, he'll get depressed because he just stays in the house.

Rini: That was my reasoning

Moleca: Yeahhh, one of his qualms was something like

Moleca: He's been alone a lot and doesn't really have anyone too close, so that by breaking up with you he wouldn't lose just a girlfriend, but a best friend as well

Moleca: and i told him that doesn't have to change, it's just a matter of getting rid of hte emotions you have for the said person

Rini: That's exactly what I was thinking about

Moleca: the thing is that you can't avoid it forever :<

Moleca: i mean not that you are going to

Moleca: but it's just like

Moleca: you're going to keep dodging around it until the time comes and then when the time comes BAM

Moleca: there's always school to distract but there also might be the chance of it distracting him from school Dx

Moleca: but i don't know him so well so i don't know ._.

Moleca: he does want to talk about it, though

Rini: Before, when we thought we were going to make it through the year, he told me that even if he didn't see me a lot, he would have school to distract him.

Moleca: Ahhh, okay xD

Rini: That's why I didn't want to break up for the past two weeks, because I know that he would dwell in it for days.

Moleca: That was just a worry i had because some people dwell on it whether there's school or not and it's still ._.

Rini: Of course there will be, which worries me also.

Moleca: but you know what you're doing xD

Moleca: It'll be okay!

Moleca: As long as you're his friend afterwards, the whole slump depression thing won't be as bad :D

Rini: That is what I am hoping

Rini: But at the same time, I hope it doesn't become one of those things where my presence just reminds him of "what could have been" or something.

Moleca: You just have to reassure him that it'll be that way, because he said from his past experience he's felt really bad about it before

Rini: Yeah, the last time we spent time together and talked about our relationship, he told me about that.

Rini: And it's NOT going to be like that.

Moleca: Exactly!

Moleca: So you're good :D

Rini: I want to be his best friend. Just not his girlfriend.

Moleca: So everything will be okay :]

Moleca: It's just that he does want to talk about it now, so not being able to talk to you lately is just kind of Dx on him

Moleca: So I hope it'll work out

Moleca: Sorry for bringing this up! DX

Rini: I don't know how to talk to him DX. Online? Phone? Person? The latter would require him actively going out of his house to see me, and I hated the thought of him coming out to see me, slightly knowing he's walking to his doom, and then going back home to just dwell on it alone at home DX.

Rini: "doom" � -______-

Moleca: LMAO

Rini: I didn't know if online would be sufficient for this

Moleca: @ the doom thing, i just pictured a dungeon Dx

Rini: LOL

Moleca: Either way he's going to hurt and he's going to have to deal with it, i think :[

Moleca: So i don't know what to say about that :[

Rini: I was considering a Facebook message so I could get all my feelings out and I could think about what to say and he could think of his response back, but I didn't know if that would be worse since he would be reading it alone. And it would be online. But it was like one of those things that I wanted to put in writing so that he would really have the chance to soak things in and think of his response instead of getting caught up in the moment.

Rini: I don't want him to be angry with me.

Rini: That was partly the reason why I didn't want him to break up before my birthday celebration on Sept. 9th.

Moleca: Mmm, I don't think he'll be angry per se

Moleca: Ahhhh, the awkwardness Dx

Rini: But at this point, I don't think it can wait any longer.

Rini: I don't think it'll be awkward unless he makes it awkward!

Rini: Because I really really really want to be his friend

Moleca: This is true!

Rini: I won't be shyinga way from him, I"ll just act like I did BEFORe we go together

Moleca: You should see him, but give him a letter telling how you feel!

Rini: Nothing has changed for ME except for the physical contact

Rini: But I don't know if the same is for him

Rini: Because if it's the same, then we can go back to the way things were

Moleca: So that way you can still see him in person, but express everything you wanted to express in a coherent manner?

Rini: Ohh, so write the letter, but give it to him in person.

Rini: And then let him read it and let him think on it before he tells me his response?

Moleca: That seems like one solution Dx

Rini: Truee

Rini: "Nothing has changed for ME except for the physical contact" � The main reason why I have to break up with him.

Moleca: Depends on how he's reacting while he's reading it and after he's read it xD

Moleca: Ahhh, yes yess, that makes perfect sense xD

Rini: Okay good DX

Rini: The only downside here would be me writing the letter and my parents finding it DXXXXXX

Moleca: Guhhhh, yeahhhh Dx

Moleca: You're the sleuth mastah! I believe in your hiding abilities!

Rini: LOL

Rini: That made me smile lmfaoo

Moleca: :D

Rini: But alright, thank you for your advice!

Rini: I'm more worried for him in this whole ideal

Moleca: I just hope everything will be done with the least amount of heartache possible Dx

Rini: Exactly DX

Moleca: But I believe in you!

Rini: Do you think he'll be angry with me?

Moleca: It's an experience or you both to grow from I suppose Dx

Rini: Because an insane thought I had before before, was that he would be angry enough to get back on me by telling my parents.

Rini: And that scared the fuck out of me.

Moleca: Mmmm, not angry, because despite the amount of hurt he's feeling, he should be grateful that you were honest and open enough to tell him upfront [or as upfron as possible XD]

Rini: Okay.

Rini: I can do this; I've just been debating on what was the best way DX.

Moleca: and lmao omg that is scary O__O

Rini: EXACTLY.

Moleca: But I really doubt he's the vengeful type XD

Rini: I could picture it at my birthday party

Rini: DX

Rini: But I haven't been a bitch

Moleca: LMAO

Moleca: no worries man!

Moleca: YOU GOT ME

Moleca: and ivy

Rini: I really haven't; I care for him

Moleca: and the brolic katrina!

Rini: LOL.

Rini: THEY WOULD SEND YOU GUYS HOME AT FIRST, OF CORUSE.

Moleca: LOL

Rini: Alright

Rini: Thank you so much!

Rini: I'm going to type the letter up before I write it by hand

Rini: And then I'll arrange to hopefully see him tomorrow

Rini: This is such tough business. x_X

Moleca: GOOD LUCK!

Moleca: Ask ivy about it, she might have more insight than I do on the whole relationship thing XD

Rini: xD

Rini: Like you, she said that I knew what I was doing XD

Rini: And yet I feel so hesitant lol

Moleca: that is natural, i would have shitted my pants by now XD

Rini: LOL

Moleca: true story! XD

Moleca: but ahhh yes yes

Rini: I really want this to be the least painful heartbreak that ever existed.

Moleca: if anything i shall be here! ♥

Rini: Because our relationship was never as serious as it should have been, at least in my opinion.

Moleca: I told him that the word breaking up was too harsh xD

Rini: Which... is why I have to break up with him. But yes, I will get on typing this thing now

Rini: YEAHH

Moleca: so don't think of it as a break up!

Rini: IT'S A CHANGE IN STATUS.

Moleca: [00:43] moleca: more like a "hey, this didn't work out, but we still have a lot of other ways to remain close to each other" kind of thing

Rini: yeahhhhhhhh

Rini: He told me about that girl from before

Rini: And even IIIIII don't want it to be like that

Rini: I really just want to be his friend

Moleca: Yes!

Moleca: You are a different person than she is!

Rini: Hell yes

Moleca: And your intentions are good too, so no worries so much :D

Rini: Ah, and yet I am consumed by worry xD.

Rini: It's fine though. I have faith that it'll all be fine.

Moleca: So do i :D

Rini: Thank you for your help ♥

Rini: I will write this thing now.

Moleca: :D ♥

Moleca: Good luck!

Moleca: AND AFTER THAT DO YOUR HOMEWORK!

Moleca: :d

Moleca: DX

Moleca: I believe in youu

Rini: But yes, if you ever speak to him, do mention the FACT that I haven't been avoiding him online. I've just been avoiding going online. He's told me that he hates it when people keep things from him.

Rini: And yes, homework will have SOME part of my day lol.

Rini: =/

Moleca: Will do :]

Rini: Thank youu

Moleca: Though that'll prolly be after I come back from my late lunch xD

Moleca: you can do it! :D

Rini: Whenever you two talk xD

Rini: My late lunch will be after this letter I suppose

Rini: Though that may take hours; I don't know yet DX

Rini: We'll see!

Rini: Talk to you later! I'm getting off AIM now.

Moleca: Kayyyy~

Rini: ♥

Moleca: Just call if anything!

Rini: Will do.