i nvr knew how much work it was to make a good xanga. well, i finished it, but dont worry, cuz i'll keep up both diaries wit the same entries! :-D here: Xanga: flip_grl55 so heres wats happening: this morn i was talkin wit my old BFF steph. shes popular now, tho, so we dont usually talk. shes more of a crisis friend now (we only talk 2 each othr wen one of us has a crisis and has no1 else 2 talk to), but 2dae she wuz tellin that I could actually b popular if i let myself. she wuz saying that i was pretty, and that a lot of the popular ppl keep sayin that they would b my friend if i would just open up. it'd b kool, but i'm not that kind of person. ive got my own friendz. i love steph tho. she's such a great friend. so i kno she's not lying. i went on her myspace, n she's got tons of pics of an old friend of mine phil. lolz he looks HOTT in them, which is really scary. good thing i'm writing now, cuz i'll be gone for the rest of the summer. this sunday (july 17) i'll be leaving for a john hopkins center of talented youth in Rhode Islane with no computer access WHATSOEVER (I kno - i cant believe it). i'll b there wit phil (yes, surprisingly-hott-in-steph's-pics phil) and jillian, a smart classmate of mine turned popular. we used to be best friendz LONG ago when we were little cuz my mom was a coworker of her grandma. right now, tho, we're competing for first place in school and stuff. yup. so i'll be back on august 5th. but then i'm leaving for the philippines on august 14th til august 29. and then school starts in september. CRAP. so as i was sayin, me n steph were just talkin. i went to her myspace n i told her how i felt "left-behind-ish" cuz evry1 in her pics are so "hott" or "pretty" (slutty, basically) but they all look happy together and they have so many friendz. i hav mine own too tho, so i should stop wanting to be like them. *smacks myself in the head* i hope to learn some new stuff (like how to do the laundry, lolz) at this camp thing. i'll b missing the feast and him singing at it, but i need to get over him as fast as i can, cuz i cant take this heartache any longer. I hope to make a few friendz at this camp thing too. yup. c ya, *Ai-RiNi P.S. Shoutout to my xanga friendz: jake, annp, and izel. also a shoutout to my AIM buddy Melissa (a classmate that's sooo nice, but i hardly talk 2 anywhere else but AIM) - thanx 4 putting me on ur profile!! <3