Well, since I've been sitting here talking/arguing with Rachel for the past like, 3 hours, I might as well dry my eyes for a moment or four and come clean. *sigh* This is mostly directed at her, I guess. But *shrugs* whatever. The truth of why I can't seem to be happy: I've said it before, I thought it was clear, but flat out, I can't make myself be happy without you in my life. And I don't mean the friends thing. I mean, I wish I could go back and take away what I did to screw us up. I wish that we were together still. But that can't happen, so I wish, and pray, and beg god/fate/what the fuck ever all the time, that we'd make it as a couple again. Hell, even your mom thinks that we'll be together again one day...I just....I wish it could happen...I wish we could be that couple we used to be....but you don't see me like that anymore...and no matter how much you say that you love me, it isn't the same without those feelings behind it..and all it does to hear it anymore, is remind me of what I miss...and it kills me...*sigh*...there ya go..problem number 1 of the few.