So I've decided that Rachel and I cannot talk again for a LONG time. Because I just can't handle that anymore. It's like, *sigh*, I don't know. I'm on the phone with Vanessa right now, and I keep talking to her about stuff with her and Rob in the past and me and Rachel in the past (and stuff right now). And it's so fucking crazy cause it's like we both know so well that "these are the people that shapped are lives". But we both have decided that we just need to get past this. Not for anything but to prove that we can rely on ourselves. Just to be ourselves. Like, this has GOT to be for me. For once, it's about me, and not what people around me want. So I have to learn to live without her in my life at all. Then, and only then, we can be friends. *sigh* Rob and Rachel are douchebags. OK, Rachel's not, and I don't know Rob that well, but GR, ya know? In other news (lol), I hung out with Devin tonight. That was nice..it always is... I'm gonna be rather blunt with this, even knowing that she reads it. I really like her a lot. I'm not sure what that means, and I know stuffs not worked out before, but *shrugs* I think things are working right now. I don't know whether we're dating or just friends or what's going on, but I do know that we kinda talked about it..so I'm not sure where we stand...but I dno..I just..I don't know. Heh..I guess that's all there really is...I just don't know..but I do smell like her right now..and she smells good. lol