everything is going fabulously. my life is back on track again and for once in over a year and a half i feel whole again. i feel like myself and im making steady progress. i havent called asshole in five days! i dont even want to talk to him or see him. im not even sad that he's gone. im happy to let him go. finally. * * * gina means everything to me and i always say that but never feel like i truly mean it, until now. i love her very much. i'll never let her down again. * * * *nine days sober*