i already told myself 2009 was a year of new beginnings. not old ones. so why am i stressing an ex? i already said, 2009 is not the year of ex boyfriends. it didnt work then, its not gonna work now. im not even in a position to be dating anyone right now. so why am i stressing? why am i stressing? i dont even think i feel lonely. no, im not lonely. maybe just unpursued. i want to be pursued. seems like im always doing the pursuing. i dont want to worry about it. i dont want to let it consume me. so, im not going to. im not going to. im just gonna keep saying im not going to.