gina said she is moving to bowling green in january. i feel my heart sink into my chest like when im high and the cops show up. instant soberness. except im not high. so its instant sadness. gina is like my lifeboat on rough seas. she keeps me afloat. i do not like this. i do not like this at all. i will drown if she leaves. i will drown. i will miss her. i will call her everyday. sometimes maybe twice a day. wow. this sucks.