im slowly [but unfortunately surely] turning into my mother. its what ive tried to steer myself away from my whole life. i love her for who she is but i do not want to be that. she takes so much shit from her loser ass boyfriend. he walks all over her like she is a fucking doormat. i say why dont you just fucking leave him? he sucks. then i find myself being run over and walked over and used and just fucking taking it all like i cant do anything about it. we're always the victims. it disgusts me. the one thing i hate about my mother is that she always has to be the victim. even if she really victimized someone else, it doesnt matter. and now, i am the victim. makes me sick. want to throw up. she nags like there is no tomorrow. my mother could drive ghandi up the fucking wall. and then, there's me, doing just as much nagging, driving myself up the wall when i realize how much nagging im actually doing. my mother is a wonderful person, she has such good qualities and talents and she's funny and fun to be around. then there is always that one thing she asks you to do or pick up and you just want to slap her in the face. thats me. someone slap me. just do it. please.