im getting too comfortable with this situation. and hes still here and i cant figure out why. im still crying my eyes out some nights and im an idiot for staying here. i wish he would go away. its too comfortable here, and my heart will be broken. its only a matter of time. of course i know we dont date. but of course i have to feel like he likes me a little with all this attention. and i like attention. i never get any. and how could i not feel hopeful when everyone else is meeting their soulmates. and i havent met anyone. i feel ugly and lame. and i barely look in the mirror. its just a reminder that im still all alone. and it might never change.