he was bad news from the beginning. i always knew that. our relationship was never defined as anything more than a fuck. a stupid fuck. then i fucked up. i let myself laugh at his jokes, i let myself cuddle up to him when i slept, and i let him in on all my secrets. now ive been dropped. its karma. i dropped the last five or so guys like dead flies. like they never even mattered/existed. and now thats me. i never existed. he was bad news from the beginning. i always knew that.