play on words. i win. just got off work from ups. its 4 in the morning. my mind wanders. i loaded a bunch of boxes that had fruit in them. people sending them to others, in lieu of a dead relative mainly. the messages all said "sorry for your loss." your mom just died, have an apple. i guess its better than getting flowers though, because they eventually die and wouldnt that just remind someone of their dead person? * * * i have a situation at hand. me and gina got in an argument coming home from indiana. it basically started on the way back from chicago i suppose. she got real frustrated because we got lost. i tried to understand but it was really hard because there wasnt anything i could do. she kept like getting mad at me like i was supposed to pull directions out of my ass and then said i didnt care about her car because she went the wrong way out of the gas station. of course i care, what kind of shit is that? im sure she has her own issues with me too. we all have issues. she was on her period so i knew she felt like shit anyway. and i wasnt on my medicine so i felt like shit. and then shit just kept getting worse and worse. but thats life i suppose. shit gets worse and worse. i dont know if i should try to talk to gina or not. i feel like we both will have very different views on the situation. and i dont think we'll understand each other's views. and so i went to her myspace and she had taken this picture of us down and i was just like wow, thats dumb. i mean did getting lost in foreign city ruin our friendship? was it really that serious? i didnt know. and of course my feelings are hurt. there are a thousand things i wanna bitch about that happened in that situation but i know doing that wont solve anything. i just want to forget what a disaster the driving part was. i mean the trip in general was really fun. i guess vacations can change friendships. i guess vacations can push people away rather than bring them together. * * * either way, its always this way.