right now it's one of those late nights where all i would like is to have someone here to talk about nothing with but there isn't anyone. so i just make some food and put on some headphones. tonight was an interesting night. one small, very small thing happens and i'm feeling great but then it's over and i think i need to find another way to continually feel that feeling. that's all i will say about that. it's going to be a hard summer. it will be nice but it will be packed with a lot of strangeness from my head. i've got this picture in my mind.. the colors fall outside the lines, it's a little off-centered, and it has no sense of balance or space, but i look at it and i'm filled with amazing wonder. i look forward to taking the rest of my vicodin in the coming days. all types of pain they kill quite well. if i knew other peoples' thoughts about me, i don't know if i would be happier or sadder, but i think i would definitely be surprised.