it was 2 in the a.m. and i thought if i were to drive for awhile and smoke that then when i came back i wouldn't feel quite the same, and i didn't. but it was not as helpful as i would have liked. tomorrow and monday will be the two days that will clear some things. i still am not certain what course of action i will take when monday does come. i think the best thing to do is just to be friendly and distant, very distant. fucking art at least i have a cat on my lap that is purring and i think likes me.