no no no. you didn't mean it, couldn't have. i was there. you shit on me all over, but i'm still there. i said what i thought i should but i didn't say it right. from the start now i see i've been taking and doing it all wrong. i'm not gonna let you just go away. it tastes too good when you run. i worked up courage that i didn't have before but i worked it up and if it goes to the trash it will be wasted. you goddamn girl, listen to what i say. i tell you truth. i don't lie, you goddamn girl. have i ever said anything that i didn't believe? no. stop thinking i do because i don't and i wouldn't because there would be no point. listen to me, goddammit. i don't go there every day because i like to hear about the art or because i think i will start losing grip. i don't show up to hear about leonardo and that renaissance thing, you know. but i'm there and you're there and if i try hard you just laugh. but if i don't try you don't do anything at all. you goddamn girl, i'm not playing a game. it would be great but you don't let it be great. let it be great let it be great. i would do it if there was one thing i would say it if there was one sentence. you should have been firm you goddamn girl if you didn't want to be in me. but you let me in you too and now you like to say how you hate it. you say it you say it and you say it and i don't think it's true. it could be but i don't think it is. you made this and you try to unmake it but it's already in the wood and walls and in the roots so you can't. i didn't do this all for nothing. i'm not doing this all for nothing. you're not worth being let out, so i'll keep you in, you goddamn girl.