There is absolutely nothing to do right now. 3:44 am. I am deathly bored. I have to write an 8 - 11 page paper for philosophy of the arts and I have no desire whatsoever to do so. Eight fucking pages. I really dread having to start that thing. I really need to ween myself off sleeping pills. Basically they give me dark circles under my eyes and make me look like shit. But I like how Benadryl makes me feel. It sorta takes your cares away, in a way. And boredom, too. Because if I have nothing else to do I can just sleep, which passes time pretty quickly. I hate that I'm 21 and I don't even really like to drink. Seriously I'd rather just take Benadryl and I've been buying that since I was like 14. Yeah, I just want this semester to be over so I can go back home. At least there I would have something to do at this time. Well, maybe. I'd have more friends there so I could call 'em up now and smoke cigarettes or something. Fuck I'm bored.