Sooo I've been going through a dry spell. It kinda eats at me a bit. Like, because, I have incredible amounts of free time, so I can think about this stuff. Tired of doing the whole play-off-insecurity-as-confidence thing, which, in all honesty, hasn't needed to be instigated recently since I quit giving effort. They're too much work, and I'll let 'em down, anyway. I guess I imagine to myself that if they're the ones who pursue it, and really create it single-handedly, then when things come to other things, I'm actually rather innocent. But there's too many fucking passive ones. Mhmmm.. too fucking passive. It shouldn't be my duty to be the only one who risks it and does something about their lust. Mmmmm... been alone and been stoned mostly. Yeah ... been alone here now for awhile.