sometimes, when i feel like doing something, i have to go and do something else first. like, say, if i was going to watch a movie, or maybe clean up my room, or go out for coffee or something. well, not that i would go out for coffee, i despise it. some people have a taste for it, apparently.. for a reason i have personally yet to discover. anyway, i have this plan of what i'm going to do, but then i do something else first, like brushing my teeth, or taking out the garbage, or taking a pill, just some small task. but then after i complete whatever it is that i'm doing, i have a totally different feeling in my head. what i wanted to do at the start has now changed to something totally different in my head. i don't know if this is just me, but i've noticed that it happens quite often. this happened just right now, which is why i decided to share my experience. must be a few synapses reconnecting or waking up, i really could not say. anyway, there's that. you know those days that you go through where you think that someone should just say this to you, or say that to you, and it would be the little sentence that would make your day a whole lot better? well, maybe not, but i had one of those days today. if someone were to say 'hey, i like being around you, you know? i just think you're a nice person to talk with and you make me happier.' or 'i think you're great, i really do.' or just 'you know what? i like you. do you know that?' or 'this has been cool. i'm glad i spent my night around you.' too bad just coming out and saying something like that would probably seem a little fucking odd at first, and maybe the person hearing the complement would act like it's a little fucking odd at first, maybe even making a joke about it to make the person that said it feel stupid, but i am sure that when they went home they would feel good about themselves and no matter how unusual they found the situation to be, they would be glad that they heard such a thing. it might be that possibly all those statements are just some of the unsaid things that a person should know anyway, but sometimes people forget things, i forget things, and then hearing it again is nice. what's weird is that the people you'd like to hear it from most are rarely the ones who say it. so i guess that is pretty shitty. what the fuck, who even thinks shit like this? i have to say, this is one my entries where i look back over it and think about it a little more and decide to delete it. this was close to becoming one of the ones that doesn't make the cut, but i'll let it slide this time. i'm feeling lenient. no relation to anything above: philosophical thought to remember: take what you can get.