today i was smoking a clove cigarette and i was sitting on steps and watching cars drive by. the clove cigarette made my mouth feel funny but i don't get that great of a buzz from them, but i think i will buy them some more because i like how they taste. i am now thinking about how people are kind of strange in a funny way and they make me laugh on the inside from all their strangeness. then tomorrow i don't have to work. i'm not sure yet how i'm going to spend my day. but plans will come about like they usually do, or sometimes don't, and what happens will happen. go away cat. go away silly dramatics. family reunions are not joyful and my mom already assumes that i am going. even though i have planned on going, i don't like how she has assumed that i will just go. relatives from pennsylvania who i do not know well at all--i have little to no interest in you or your life, whether you're related to me or not. i'm like that. i can't think clearly now. there are people around and terrible music on the stereo. i am out of my own climate and it doesn't suit me well. we should of all just stayed children, but no, gotta grow up. end. end? yes, end now i guess. i sound a little bit like a crazy in this entry, i see.