even gods couldn't stop it. i really know it now and i can really feel it now. i just had probably the most fucking intense epiphany of my life. and now i'm a little bit different. the difference of the sun going down and the sun going up has been terrible. maybe it won't be terrible later on. in fact, it's probably just one of those lessons or one of those.. spiteful shots from smugness. how old am i? about 19 or so? three years at the absolute most i will compete. as we walked back to the car it was raining and i smirked at the irony we had made and i think she might have saw me but didn't want to ask what it was i was smirking about but i think she may have had some idea of it anyway and now after just one night i don't feel like a king anymore and i don't think i am the type to be fit for royalty and i am very low since it had been some time that i had climbed that high.