today was the worst day of my life. minus getting to see mrs. beihl. that was the best thing to happen to me since Febraury :-) work with staceyface was pretty nice. we talked and goofed around and just had a good time. its nice to feel comfortable around her again, things were a little, weird there for a while i can't sleep. and have wasted by carrie underwood stuck in my head. and i desperately want to go sit outside and talk to someone on the phone, just like the old days, too bad i have no friends to call and nothing to talk about other than the fact that i'm so fucking tired of bending over backwards for everybody and doing everything and anything for everyone and anyone and getting nothing in return. i'm so fucking tired of being alone. its not even funny anymore. its just not comments that make sense this time